Mommie is going over the edge

I don't think I want to be a mommie anymore. Is this an option? I'm giving up my Saturday (day off) to drive a bunch of orchestra demons to a workshop 70 miles away, and the girl has to bitch about what time I expect her to be home tonight. After all, I am just the evil mother. She's also pissed that I won't spent $3000 on a trip to Europe next summer. She has already been to Europe (gratis Mommie) and I haven't been. Even if I had $3000, which I don't, I would want to put in that second bathroom we need.

Such is life.

Get my butt chewed out today for apparently offending one of my welfare clients. It wasn't good customer service. Hmmm, I thought customer's were usually buying something, not getting handouts. And, I was not mean to them.
I like my co-worker's idea of orphanages. Round up all the kidlets, and when their parents get jobs, they can have the kids. I just had another client get arrested for delivering drugs to an undercover police officer. Stooooopid.
I hate my job soooo much.

More than anything, I want my kids to have decent lives. I have worked my ass off for them. I want them to have jobs they don't hate going to every day. They don't get it. They probably aren't supposed to. If I remember - I went through a "I hate my parents" stage around 16. I still don't like my mother. I have tried so damn hard to be a better mother than she was. I don't know if my girls will ever figure that out or not?

Had a huge fight with the 16 year old tonight about what time she has to be home. The orchestra concert at the local college went later than they expected, they had not gone to eat yet.......and we are supposed to leave at 7:15AM. Am I asking so much to come home at a decent hour? Seems like it. When I get mad, I clean - so the house is pretty much clean for the week. That's ok.

I'm tired and I'm not waiting up for her tonight. So there.